My relationship with a narcissist crack head
The world is full of narcissistic men but the worst are narcissistic men who are addicted to crack and will do anything to get it. This is my life with one of them. I didn't know at the time the true hell I would go through.
I was in a 9 year relationship with Jim Moore. It was like any other relationship except he is a narcissist who is addicted to crack. It took me more than a year to find out he was an addict and 9 years to find out he was a stark raving mad narcissist. This type of man will love bomb you in the beginning. He'll tell you he loves you within a week of meeting, say he's never felt this way before, he's never love anyone like he loves you, you're the love of his life. He'll spend alot of time with you, dinners, walks, shopping. And he'll want you to move in with him within weeks of meeting. He'll want to get married, he's just so in love and can't live without you. That' exactly how it went with us. I moved in and BINGO, his true intentions started to come out. We lived together for over a year before I found crack paraphernalia in the basement, a place where he spent alot of time. Of course he lied about it, saying it was his ex wife that left it behind. He'd disappear for days, telling me he was at a friends drinking. Long story short, by 2020 our relationship started to crack because of the lies, he'd say he was sorry, he knew he should quit crack and I believed him. I felt bad for him and saw potential for him, that he was sincere. He wasn't. So the crack and the lies continued. He's start fights just so he could leave to smoke crack. He'd spend whole paychecks on crack and come home broke. I wanted to believe him, help him, start a new life without drugs. He'd get really mean, abusive, calling me names, putting me down but to his friends he was Mr. perfect. He was also a gossip, I mean a vicious gossip. He'd put down his family, his friends, his coworkers and me. He was a mama's boy. Always begging her approval. In 2023 he quit working all together. He was so entitled he felt work was beneath him plus the fact he'd have more time to smoke crack. He started to get really bad, staying up all night smoking crack and sleeping all day. Moody, mean, he got eczema, sores, nose bleeds, lost weight, was pacing the floor at night peering out the windows, saw smoke coming out of the vents, or wires, hearing voices at night outside the house, saw giant racoons in the garage, he was paranoid, his teeth were starting to decay. Just a mess. I finally moved out in 2023 thinking we could work on our relationship. A few months later he was asking me to move back in. I considered it. But my gut told me don't do it girl.
.In July 2023 his mom died.
A year later he inherited 250K from her estate. I don't think he really cared about anything but the money and he ripped thru 150K in 6 months .He was having crack parties, buying bags of cocaine he cooked into crack, loaning money to his flying monkeys. He was selling norco, crack, leaving his house for days, not feeding his pets, dog poop and pee everywhere. I helped out with the pets and tried to help him but he was a raving crackhead maniac. When he was at home, he'd be passed out on the couch, bags of crack and crack pipes eveywhere. He was making promises to me, about quitting crack, how much he loved me, I couldn't take his lies, bad moods anymore and I left him for good at the end of Nov, 2024. 3 days later he move in a crack whore named Jacqueline Capes but Jaxon is her prostitute name. He already had her lined up. This is what narcissistic men do before the discard. He made life so miserable for me that I would be the one to break it off, which I did and he's off the hook.
He said she was the love of his life, same thing he said to me. LOL . She's been married 3 times, still married to #3, has grown kids who hate her, a criminal record of abusive attacks on husbands.. She has been convicted of felony domestic abuse when she stabbed and scratched up one husband. I hear she's scratched up his face twice. She moved in with no job, no money, no phone, car, no DL, is on food stamps is 41 and useless, he's 53 and just as useless. So now he's flat broke. Can't pay his utilities, buy food, but he always has money for crack and cigarettes. He still has 100k he'll get in April, we'll see how long that lasts BECAUSE he now has to support her.
After I left, I found out he was having crack whores at his place getting BJ's for free crack. She was one of them. LOL. JC isn't special, she isn't better and she isn't better looking, she's just easier. Plus she's a crack addict like he is, perfect couple. And he will do the same thing her to her that he did to me, to his ex wife. Men like Jim don't change, they can't. His brain is already disordered, then damaged from decades of crack. There were red flags, gut feelings, but I choose to ignore them. Because he could act like a normal human being at times.
The lovely couple just got engaged but JC already has a husband. Jim will be #4. Both of them are retarded
Below is a recent post from one of her daughters FB after she posted a pic of her kids. It appears they are not friendly towards their mom. Wonder what JC did. LOL
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